LIFESTYLE / WHY I DECIDED TO TAKE THE PLUNGE
Have you ever wanted something so badly but you had entirely no idea how or when or more importantly if it could ever be possible? Well, that's pretty much how I felt my whole life. Some children grow up knowing they want to be an astronaut or a ballerina and of course, I had those same dreams (mine were a bit stranger though, I always wanted to be an architect ha) but as I grew older, the one dream that always remained and stuck with me was that one day I wanted to be self employed. I desperately wanted to be my own boss. Like above, I didn't know how or when or if it could ever happen but I knew I wanted it so very badly. And well, here I am, finally writing to say that it has happened... I am officially self employed and my own frickin' boss. Eeeeeeek.
Cheeeeeers to me!
Note: I think a lot of what I'm going to discuss is relatable to many different career paths and opportunities but obviously, I'm now a 'full time' blogger and freelance writer so naturally I'm going to talk about my journey but if you're not a blogger, I hope some of it might still help you!
I think a lot of bloggers are in the same boat, they hope and pray that one day they'll be able to be in a position to take the plunge but it's clear that everyones personal journey is different and is dependent on so many factors. Of course, a person with a family to provide for may not be able to take the 'risk' as easily as someone who lives at home with their parents. So yes, just make sure you try and factor in your financial and personal situations before typing up any resignation letters...
In retrospect, I can definitely tell that I set myself a bit of a path academically. I took quite artsy / creative GCSE (high-school) subjects which I did fairly well at and then found my true passion of writing and literature whilst at college. This passion was only heightened during my university course where I took a variety of modules such 'creative writing' and 'media studies' - it sounds a bit doss but trust me, it wasn't haha. Writing wasn't really anything I'd dabbled into before, apart from scribbling into my teenage diary, but I quickly found that it became a massive outlet for me and I was able to lose myself into worlds I'd create.
During my final year of university, I decided to buckle up a bit and take things a bit more seriously so I actually started my first blog which was all about university life and the trials and tribulations of being a late teenager and I also got a few opportunities to write for our university magazine. Both things gave me much more confidence in my own words and only made me want to do it more and more.
The three years ended and despite getting a good degree, we sadly didn't receive much guidance as to what our next steps career wise could be so I felt a little lost. Luckily both of my parents were super supportive and my dad, who comes from a very creative profession, suggested an internship abroad doing event management.
So that's just what I did! I packed my bags and moved to Germany where I spent almost a year creating really exciting events for high-profile clients. In retrospect, it was bloody hard work and involved countless late nights but my god was it rewarding and I loved that it got my creative juices flowing. Anyway, after the year, I followed my heart and moved back to London where, after some searching, I found my most recent job.
I've always been fairly picky with jobs but the events agency I worked for was fun, sociable and allowed me to travel a lot - which is a massive passion of mine. I worked there for over three years until...
HOW I KNEW IT WAS TIME
The only thing I can relate it to would be a boy... you know when you meet a boy and on paper he ticks all the boxes but actually there's just something missing and you can't quite put your finger on it? Well that's just how I felt about my job for almost two years. There were times where I loved it, I had the best of friends and learnt a lot... but... it just didn't feel right. I always knew in the back of my mind that it wasn't enough and that I wasn't fulfilling my potential.
It wasn't until I started blogging that I thought that my dream of working full time could be a reality. Blogging definitely started out as a hobby but the more I did it and the more incredible feedback I got from you, my readers, as well as brands themselves, the more time and energy I wanted to invest into it.
Financially speaking, it wasn't until a few months ago until I started getting some payment from sponsored posts but it definitely started as dribs and drabs so even then I definitely didn't expect to be in a position to be able to quit my job. As most of you will know, I rent a flat which is fairly pricey and have some outgoings so I can't reaaaaallllyyy rely on 'blog money' solely as it can be quite unpredictable, hence why I'm also going to pursue some freelance writing opportunities on the side too. I also do some other paid work too to help as well - hahahaha I realise that sounds really seedy but its not, I promise!
In regards to quitting, it wasn't as dramatic as it sounds and I think my boss pretty much saw it coming because the more passionate I was becoming about blogging, the less passionate I was about my day job and it was starting to show. I didn't look forward to going into work anymore, I had very little drive and all I wanted to do was write.
I felt pretty shitty for months and had this lingering feeling of wanting to quit and one day I just did it and it genuinely was the most liberating thing I've ever done in my life!!! A real 'why didn't you do it sooner' moment! It may sound silly but I think I owe a lot of it to Sarah Knight and her book The Life-Changing Magic of Not Giving a F**k!
HOW I FEEL NOW
Not sure how much I can talk about this because I've only been self employed for a day but so far, so good. Of course there's the niggling feeling of OH MY GOD WHAT HAVE YOU DONE YOU NUTTER, mainly because the internet is such an unpredictable thing buuuuuut putting that aside, I've never been more excited about my future. It's the first time in a long time where I've been doing something I'm passionate about, and I'd like to think, also quite good at.
It's definitely going to take a lot of hard work, determination and perseverance but if I keep doing what I'm doing and stay clear in my goal then I hope that things will fall into place and only get better. I'm just going to have to make sure there are minimal 'lazy days' watching Sex and the City on the sofa haha.
P.S. The two absolute highlights for me have definitely been not having to wake up to an alarm and also not having to get the darn tube. Absolutely brilliant!!! To the people that still have to commute into work, I'm sorry but also... at least there's one less person there so you may get a smidge more room haha.
Stay tuned for another update soon and also for hopefully lots more exciting stuff! If anyone has any questions or wants to find out more, feel free to leave a comment below, drop me a message on Instagram or email me on email@example.com !
Loads of love and thank you for reading, without you, my dream wouldn't have come true!